Trust .

Hello fellow readers, I have been away for a while but that is because nothing of importance has come about. Until now.

I have finally started to come out of my comfort zone and began to talk to other people. I once believed in love at first sight, how cliché, until many years ago too many people have hurt me and betrayed my friendship and so my lack of trust in people plummeted to rock bottom. Lately I have, admittedly, fallen in love with another but has been deceived. This has shattered my trust in people as a whole again because to me, if you truly respect somebody you wouldn't try to hurt them in any way. I had been speaking to this person for a while now until today. My old saying was "Don't depend on anyone in this world because even your shadow leaves you in the darkness" and stupidly I ignored this and thought I knew this person extremely well... but apparently not.

Who else has felt such great pain after being deceived? Who else felt betrayed and thought nobody on this planet was trust worthy? well today, that is me.

 I try not to trust too much, to love too much or even hope too much because that "too much" can hurt you so much. Even Snow White put too much trust in others and look what happened to her. I know it is only a story, a fairytale, but it taught me so much and that is to not put my trust on anyone but only to trust in myself. Trust that my actions will have positive consequences that I will be truly grateful for. But until then I cannot trust another soul.

Sorry to be the bearer of such a low and negative post but I felt it was something I needed to openly admit and express through words. I hope none of you fellow readers will betray or get betrayed.

Stay safe.

The Awkward Situation.

Hello lovely readers, I thought I should touch upon something that everybody hates... the awkward situations. The moment you talk to someone you thought was another person you knew but was really a random stranger or when you wave at someone thinking it was your friend. Yeah, that just happened to me!

Walking through Cheltenham town minding my own business and then I thought I saw one of my friends. So as you do you get a bit excited and so you sort of do I quick shuffle over and grab them by the shoulder and scream to make them jump.... to find out it isn't actually the person you thought it was, but was actually a woman -probably late 40s- with her child. You're probably thinking "but if she was with her child how would you have thought it was your friend" well I shall answer that now. The small human was with her, what I guess, was her father and so they came out of the shop whilst I scare her and she screams, I laugh and the father and child stood staring at me like I was mental. She turns around and my face just drops. What have I done! Is all that is going through my head. I go bright red and apologise until I lose oxygen in my lungs and tried to explain why I scared her. 

Thankfully she was very nice about it but I am still shocked.

I thought I woupd share this little mishap I had with a stranger and I hope you never have the same story I just had. Let me know if you have.

Have a great day.