Trust .

Hello fellow readers, I have been away for a while but that is because nothing of importance has come about. Until now.

I have finally started to come out of my comfort zone and began to talk to other people. I once believed in love at first sight, how cliché, until many years ago too many people have hurt me and betrayed my friendship and so my lack of trust in people plummeted to rock bottom. Lately I have, admittedly, fallen in love with another but has been deceived. This has shattered my trust in people as a whole again because to me, if you truly respect somebody you wouldn't try to hurt them in any way. I had been speaking to this person for a while now until today. My old saying was "Don't depend on anyone in this world because even your shadow leaves you in the darkness" and stupidly I ignored this and thought I knew this person extremely well... but apparently not.

Who else has felt such great pain after being deceived? Who else felt betrayed and thought nobody on this planet was trust worthy? well today, that is me.

 I try not to trust too much, to love too much or even hope too much because that "too much" can hurt you so much. Even Snow White put too much trust in others and look what happened to her. I know it is only a story, a fairytale, but it taught me so much and that is to not put my trust on anyone but only to trust in myself. Trust that my actions will have positive consequences that I will be truly grateful for. But until then I cannot trust another soul.

Sorry to be the bearer of such a low and negative post but I felt it was something I needed to openly admit and express through words. I hope none of you fellow readers will betray or get betrayed.

Stay safe.

The Awkward Situation.

Hello lovely readers, I thought I should touch upon something that everybody hates... the awkward situations. The moment you talk to someone you thought was another person you knew but was really a random stranger or when you wave at someone thinking it was your friend. Yeah, that just happened to me!

Walking through Cheltenham town minding my own business and then I thought I saw one of my friends. So as you do you get a bit excited and so you sort of do I quick shuffle over and grab them by the shoulder and scream to make them jump.... to find out it isn't actually the person you thought it was, but was actually a woman -probably late 40s- with her child. You're probably thinking "but if she was with her child how would you have thought it was your friend" well I shall answer that now. The small human was with her, what I guess, was her father and so they came out of the shop whilst I scare her and she screams, I laugh and the father and child stood staring at me like I was mental. She turns around and my face just drops. What have I done! Is all that is going through my head. I go bright red and apologise until I lose oxygen in my lungs and tried to explain why I scared her. 

Thankfully she was very nice about it but I am still shocked.

I thought I woupd share this little mishap I had with a stranger and I hope you never have the same story I just had. Let me know if you have.

Have a great day.

Dreams and Ambitions.

Hello there fellow readers, throughout my life so far I have had many dreams and aspirations which sometimes were just plain out of reach. But then I asked myself is it really out of reach or am I just reluctant to put in the effort to take the long road ahead. Ever since I started getting into Fashion all I have been thinking of is "will I get to a stage where I'll just give up?" And the answer to that is probably yes and do you want to know why? It is because everybody gets to a point in there life where they feel like giving up but you know what, I am not going to give up. I will get up off the floor and carry on along the long and winding road to success.

My first dream I had that I can remember was that I wanted to become an astronaut until I found out that you had to spend a long time away from home. So that dream went flying out of the window. My next dream was to become a chef, then someone else I knew took my dream for themselves before I took the chance and so I gave up on that... even if I can cook. My next dream was to become a tattoo artist... until I didn't like the idea of tattooing. My last and final dream is to become either a fashion designer or work in fashion magazine editorial. It is hard work so far but I am sure if I work hard but play harder I will have my dream job and you will too if you just crack on with it... or you could just marry someone rich and just do it that way. I am joking of course!

No matter what you want to achieve in life, because it will change,  you should always try your hardest before giving up. Never underestimate your own abilities before taking the leap into the unknown as you will surprise yourself.

Have a great day.

New Beginnings.

It is the start of February and I know it is too late to think of goals for the New Year and I call them goals because resolution. according to a thesaurus, is only a firm decision to do or not to do something whereas a goal is something you strive to achieve and I feel I am more likely to achieve a goal.

Anyway, back to the main focus. I have been thinking negatively about myself for an extremely long time now and I think it is about time that I change that for the better. What I am doing is writing down one negative and one positive thing about me on two separate pieces of paper and then proceeding to burn the negative and keep the positive. At the end of the year I will look back at all the positive things I have wrote, or what has been written to me, and celebrate the new year in happiness and not another pull-my-hair-out situation. 

Another thing I want to do for February is update my YouTube channel as I have been too upset over the last video's negativity but I shall try my hardest to post something new once a month to keep my mind busy.

This was a short one for you beautiful readers because it was something I wanted to add before the second of February.

Have a great day.

Favouritism.

Hello there fellow readers of all that is great and wonderful... Don't know what that was, anyway, thought today's blog could be all about things I like? Is that fun? probably not but here we go!

My favourite colour is green but not just any green, oh no, but Islamic green. God I love that colour! 

My favourite location to go on holiday is my home as it has all my comforts and is a place of relaxation in my eyes. 

My favourite musician is Lana Del Rey because she is Queen and Lord of all Creation. 

My favourite food is banana pancakes and drink wise has to be Raspberry and Pomegranate from Marks and Sparks (M&S) for all of you who don't know my lingo. 

My favourite activity is going for really long walks in the countryside because you get the scenery, the smells and you free your mind from all problems. 

My favourite sports team is Arizona Cardinals in NFL and my favourite player is Larry Fitzgerald because he is always smiling and just looks super happy all the time. 

My favourite season is Spring because it is my birthday (3 April) but also when it isn't too hot nor too cold but a major contributor is the fact that life comes back to the world. 

One thing I would love to do is travel around the world but do challenges in the different countries, kinda like The Amazing Race. 

My favourite quote is from the wonderful Karl Lagerfeld and that is;

"Trendy is the last stage before tacky."

I just love this quote because it stops me saying the word 'trendy'.

I think I have covered most areas of things I like and so I shall love you and leave you, fellow readers.

Have a great day.

A Little Bit About Me!

I'm gonna start this off on a light not and say hello fellow bloggers. I never thought I, of all people, would do this but I guess I have too many experiences, feelings and just great stories to tell that I thought, hmmm, why not? Well anyway let me begin by saying who I am. My name is Ben Green, I am from Gloucestershire in England and I want to get into Fashion editorial. I am currently studying Fashion Design at Gloucestershire College and am thoroughly enjoying every minute of it, even if it does get stressful at times. I am 16 and all I want to do in life is achieve. I am not a massive writer and I just prefer getting straight to the point in anything I say r do so there are ups and downs with being me and we shall experience those things together.

Now to get into my personal life that not many people know. I have a problem with my stomach and intestines that cause me to be in excruciating pain and also stops me from doing anything. Most people don't understand and think I am just skipping college but if you have been in that situation where you are in so much pain that all you do is curl up into a little ball in the middle of your bed and just hibernate from the world for the day then yeah, I feel you. I also have quite a big anxiety issue when it comes to meeting people and I just always stick work into my face to try and hide the fact they are noticing me. The amount of times someone has got to want to know me and I have just thrown it in their face by saying "I have work to do" or "yeah, I am super busy today and the rest of the week. I will have to see how much of my college work I finish before meeting you" is just absolutely crazy. I have to apologies to so many people because I have hurt them without knowing by pushing them away before actually getting to know them and it just makes me feel like such an ass. I have had some really rough moments with family issues and thankfully my parents overcame them slightly to stay together as a married couple which I am thankful for because Lord knows what I would be like socially if they ever did divorce. I have serious trust issues which at times is good because I get out of bad situations but also inconvenient at times because I don't trust anyone except for one person who shall remain nameless.

I hope you enjoyed getting to know me and I have no idea how long these blogs can be before they get annoying and boring so I shall leave it there.

Have a great day.